Been there.. done that..

Being young is one of the privileges everyone enjoys. Fewer problems or worries and a feeling of being invincible among a group of friends who provide a sense of security. We have all been there and we all still want that. But sooner or later, the time comes when we all must become responsible adults and learn to give up what we want, so we can choose to do what is right. Of course, a lifetime of responsibility isn't always easy. And as the years go on, it's a burden that can become too heavy for some to bear. But still we try to do what is best, what is good. Not only for ourselves, but for those we love. Yes, sooner or later we must all become responsible adults. No one knows this better than the young.

-For Anirudh Rawat and Sneha Kapur. May God bless your souls.

Walk the Talk

"You can talk the talk but can you walk the walk?" This phrase has always appealed to me and I have been a follower of it. It's got so much depth and meaning in it. Meaning to the phrase is quiet simple. Talk is cheap, but can you follow through with action? Something like: don't let your mouth write a cheque your ass can't cash. :)

In the end I believe a lot of us spend our days waiting for ideal paths to appear before us. What we forget is that paths are made by walking and not waiting.

Failure to Communicate

Sometimes, events occur in some random succession which are not supposed to occur under the normal circumstances. Some of these events are controllable and some are not. Today was just such a day when they were not.

I'd like to be in control of every situation I am in and I am the type who rarely shares his emotions or feelings whether good or bad with anyone. But today, I couldn't hold either of them in for 45 long minutes. I know myself.. or at least I think I knew myself .. I would never let anyone get to me or affect me about anything... I don't really know what happened.. I snapped.. and for 45 mins, I became someone I would never like to be again - Egoistic. What this person said to me is not important.. what is that what effect that had on me..

Why did I do this? What was the need? Why did I let someone affect my thought process.. I had promised myself I wouldn't let anybody and anything affect me... How the hell did this happen? I didn't know this person.. neither did this person know me.. Yet for some reason, I felt the need to belt out my anger.. Maybe in this person I saw a bit of me.. A part of me which I had always wanted to forget.. A part of me which I have been running away from a long felt like my past, catching up with me..

I think repressing our feelings doesn't mean they go away. On the contrary, they are buried alive, deep within the cells of our body and unconsciously we act them out in a more indirect and unhealthy way.

By the end of it all, I added a previously deleted word to my vocabulary today.. it's called "empathy"...

Handle with care

Trust.. a relationship of reliance. It's one of the most fragile and precious gift one can receive from or give to another human being. It can truly make life wonderful and complete giving you a sense of security, belonging and togetherness. Once it is lost, it can be impossible to recover. Of course the truth is: we never know who we can trust. Those we're closest to can betray us, and total strangers can come to our rescue. In the end, most people decide to trust only themselves. It really is the simplest way to keep from getting burned.


Beyond the horizon of the life we lived when we were young,
In a world of music and dance
Our thoughts strayed constantly and without boundary
The making of the division line had begun.

Along the long road and on down the causeway
They had met there by the cut
There was a star that followed in our footsteps
Broke us before time and took our dreams away

Looking beyond the impressions of footsteps behind us
To a glimpse of how green it was on the other side
Steps taken forward but sometimes sleepwalking back again
Dragged by the force of some inner tide

Fueled forever by desire and ambition
There's a hunger in all still unsatisfied
Our weary eyes will stray to the horizon
Though down this road we've been so many a times

While you are wasting your time on your passions
Engulfed in a fever of spite
Beyond your tunnel, your vision fades reality
Like shadows into the night

To martyr yourself to caution
Is not going to help at all
Because there will be no safety in numbers
When the right one walks out of the door

So i open my door to my friends
And i ask could we wipe the slate clean
just give it time and then speak my name
then we can hear ourselves again.


Power... It's one of those things which most people don’t think about until it’s taken away from them. Whether it’s the political power over the many, or a lovers influence over just one. We all want some sort of power in our lives if only to give ourselves choices. To be without choices, to feel utterly powerless... Well, it’s a lot like being alone in the dark.
It's true.. power corrupts, absolute power curropts absolutely..But it rocks absolutely too..

Minutes of Meeting

Date : 14th Feb 2008 / Time : 2:45 p.m.
Venue : Standard Chartered Bank
Purpose : Official Meeting with banker.

Raj : Good Afternoon Mr. Sharma. Happy Valentines
Me : (Zapped) Good Afternoon Raj..
Raj : (Big Smile) How are you today sir? Hows your Valentine?
Me : (Feeling confused) Err' I'm good.
Raj : (Big smile) And your Valentine sir?
Me : I don't have any.
Raj : (Smile Lost) Oh I'm very sorry Sir.
Me : (Pretending I didn't hear that)
Raj : (Sits down and opens the statement file) Noone sir?
Me : (murmuring without eye contact) Yes noone. Now shall we
begin with A/C statements?
Raj : Yes of course sir.

3:00 p.m. 10 mins into the meeting..

Raj : Why noone sir?
Me : What?
Raj : Why don't you have a valentine sir?
Me : (again confused) Err' I don't know. Tell me about
the following transaction...
Raj : You know Sir, You should get a Valentine.
Me : (Now getting agitated) I'm running short of time and have to get back to my work so if we can please get this over with.
Raj : Yes sure sir.

3:15 p.m. Meeting over / About to leave

Me : Thanks Raj, If any query, I'll call you.
Raj : Welcome sir, absolutely sir. Happy Valentines day sir.
Me : (walking out of the bank..looking at the
gun on the guards shoulder) Hmmmphh...


As I turn the lights low
you put some music on
we let our bodies sing
Swing to the soft song
I feel your heat
It's turning me on
I want to feel you all night long..
so come close, as close as you can
I surrender to you, you're so tendered and tanned..
Like a angel that's fallen from grace
righteousness just shines on your face
So lay back and close your eyes
tune in to my aura and fantasize..

What your body wants
I got this
What you need indeed
I'm gonna rock this
Just Like an ocean, as I push
I blow ya emotions
You explode, like dynamite
U got the fuse but I got the light
Together we swing
Shh!, I hear our souls sing
A symphony, a lovers harmony

I'm gonna kiss you from your head to your toes and then
I wanna travel deep into your soul..
I wanna play games with your mind
Open your heart and see what we might find
A little love for you,
Some love to give back to me
whisper to my spirit
and tell me exactly
How much you love me, how much you care
How much I can touch, how much and where..

Then as our games come to an end
We start again...


Earth ... From Space, it seems an like an abstraction- a rendered image of an artists masterpiece. And from that distance one might never imagine that it is alive.

Life ... It first appeared in the sea almost four billion years ago in the form of single-celled organism. In an explosion of multitude, spanning millions of years, nature's first multicellular organisms began to multiply... and then it stopped.

Past ... Four-hundred-forty-million years ago, a great mass extinction would kill off nearly every species on the planet leaving the vast oceans drained and empty. Slowly, plants began to evolve, then insects, only to be wiped out in the second great mass extinction upon the planet.

why?... This cycle repeated again and again. Reptiles emerging, independent of the sea only to be killed off. Then dinosaurs, struggling to life along with the first birds, fish, and flowering plants - their decimations came from the sky in form of a rock resulting in Earth's fourth and fifth great extinctions.

Truth ... Only a hundred-thousand years ago, Homo Sapiens appear- "man". From cave paintings to the Ramayana's and Bible's to the fire, the wheel and Apollo 11, we have been a tireless force upon the earth and off cataloging the natural world as it unfolds to us.

Now ... Rising to a world population of over six billion people all descended from that original single cell, that first spark of life. But for all our knowledge, what no one can say for certain, is what or who ignited that original spark. Is there a plan, a purpose or a reason to our existence? Will we pass, as those before us, into oblivion, into the sixth extinction that scientists warn is already in progress?

Future ... In the beginning, it began with an act of supreme violence - a "big bang" expanding ever outward, space born of matter and gas, ten billion years ago. Whose idea was this? Who had the ability for such invention? and the reason? Were we part of that plan ten billion years ago? are we born only to die? to be fruitful and multiply and replenish the earth before giving way to our generations? if there is a beginning, must there be an end? we burn like fires in our time only to be extinguished. To surrender to the elements' eternal reclaim. Could we, too, become extinct? or if this fire of life living inside us is meant to go on, who decides? who tends the flames? can he reignite the spark even as it grows cold and weak? Questions.. thats all that we are left with.. will there ever be an answer? Well... we still got time...

Every once in a while there comes a film that is so compelling that it strikes a chord in the deepest psyche of human emotion. Paul Thomas Anderson’s latest film just might be his best, at least in my eyes it is. I remember his work from Boogie Nights and Magnolia, Anderson widens his scope to epic proportions and zeros in his focus intimately on Daniel Plainview (Daniel Day-Lewis), an oil man during the early days of the business, at the start of the 20th century in "There Will Be Blood". I got my hands on a dvd screener off the internet recently and gave it a watch.

The opening scene bares resemblance to that of Stanley Kubrick’s 2001: A Space Odyssey; there is absolutely no dialogue for the first 20 minutes, I watched patiently while the tension built as Daniel searches in a deep, dark hole for oil and blasts his way into the liquid gold, resulting in a leg injury. The film follows Daniel and his son H.W. (played well by newcomer Dillon Freasier) as they search for more land rich with oil and try and buy it up by any means necessary. Daniel’s unquenchable thirst for oil consumes his very soul and decays what humanity (and sanity) he had in a life-long odyssey for wealth and power, fueled by his greed and only matched by his ambition.

Midway into the movie Plainview’s greed is spotted by a bible-thumping prophet/”healer”, Eli Sunday. Sunday and Plainview square off in a rivalry for profit, each in his own way; Daniel wants wealth and Eli wants converts, and both pander to the masses to get what they desire. Plainview sees his ambition and greed inside Eli and reflects back to him his own demons and it fuels his own hatred for Eli and himself. The film is at its most compelling when Plainview and Sunday smack each other around; either in the mud or during a violent baptism. And adding to the tension is a blisteringly frenzied soundtrack by Johnny Greenwood (the lead guitarist of Radiohead), which reverberates as one of the most effective musical pieces of the past couple of years.

The ironic part is that Plainview’s story is a simple, but compelling one and classic in all the best ways. The film reminisces touches of Citizen Kane, The Godfather and The Treasure of the Sierra Madre, which are brilliantly mixed together, creating a fascinating and thrillingly original epic. At the heart of the film is an incredible performance by Academy Award winner Daniel Day-Lewis (He was spectacular in My left foot) and I guarantee he will take home another Oscar for his work with this one as well. Lewis’ performance is a force of nature; filled with violent rage, spewing out like one of Plainview’s profitable mentality. It’s mesmerizing and impossible to look away. All at once it’s frightening, tragic and even—strangely enough—humorous. It’s the performance of a lifetime, and is the core engine that propels the film forward with solid momentum, and it’s just one of the reasons why There Will Be Blood is one of the very best films I have ever seen and an absolute must watch for everyone who has read this far.

Defunct Ideology

There was a time (about 10 years back) when mobile phones were a statement. Like any new technology that hits the market, they were picked by the actual "well off" gentry of the country. As big as pencil box sized black bricks were carried around by hand so as to show the "capability" of the individual. let's be honest.. Rs 16 incoming and rs 30 outgoing were a considerable amount of money 10 years back for making communication. So the believability for the person being actually a somebody was more back then.

Fast forward - present day. The cleaning lady handed over her mobile # to my mom. yes I know It's not a shocking thing anymore. But what is shocking is that how stuff has become accessible to each and everyone (which is kinda like an odd thing.)

There was a time when a certain society of people used to look glamorous and different for the kind of clothes/shoes/watches/hair etc. they used to have on them.

Now. Clothes/shoes/electronics are accessible and affordable. So is everything else like cars, bikes etc. The word "exclusive" has now been pushed into the far squeeze of ultra niche crowd.

I mean a person could be living in a 2 bedroom L.I.G. flat somewhere in outskirts of the city, but still can look like a supermodel / billionaire n talk like as if is about to participate in Ms. Universe pageant or has just got off the flight from U.K.

Is it a good thing? It could be if they are wannabes who want to fake it till they make it.

I interact with and see close to 100 - 150 people on a daily basis (being a part of the fashion/retail industry). All kinds of people. There are many who are like the ones I described above - looking like the next supermodel, with the flashiest of clothes and accents and arrogance to match that of a billionaire. Yet their true colors, shallowness and fakeness reflect in their attitude and tells about where they're coming from.

Then I meet people who look so simple, everyday and average, purchase goods worth thousands in a matter of seconds and yet be so humble and down to earth in their approach that just mesmerizes me. I mean these people carry stacks and I mean "stacks" of money on them yet can be passed as a commoner by anyone. Their politeness and simplicity reflect their general attitude and that to me is glamorous and appealing.

It's like a person who is shallow, will try and do anything to get the attention cause he/she wants to prove something. Although a person who actually is a somebody wouldn't give two bits about these details and he/she will have nothing to prove to noone.

I get a first hand experience everyday that everything that shines is not gold and not to judge people on their outer appearance and on face value.

Coming back to my main point. These days, anybody can try and look like a somebody with a little bit of an effort and money. They forget though, that this can get them a little bit of fame only in the short run cause people in time will see right through them.

In the long run, a person who is humble, simple, honest and genuine wins in all aspects of life.

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